Sunday, October 17, 2010 12:44 AM
Had a bad evening today... even more so when I was heading to dempsey...
I shdnt have even give in to peggy's persuasion to join the get-together... not knowing that I would be qtn by someone I tot would not have know wat is happening...
Questioning me did not help and had made situation worst... cos not only it did not help clear the air but made me feel disappointed with this long time fren of mine...
11 years of friendship... This has shown how well this person know me... then be it... today it's like a "wakeup call"... all these while its just self-decieving for referring them as "buddies"... why do I always feel that there is a "wall" between and I would nv be like the usual "maesie" that I am in front of my other close peeps like phy, peggy, jas, gene, margaret and zenn... I tend to hold back comments reason being, I dunno wat she would be tinking and the fact is I also couldnt figure out what is going thru her mind...
I give up... Ive been disappointed with this fren for a long time and I didnt express it obvious becos I always have this tot in me "its hard to come by with a fren of so many years..." but subsequently, I feel the friendship between us is drifting apart.. more and more so as time goes by....
Perfectly Imperfect - Lil' Star
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