Friday, April 27, 2007 12:38 AM
Finally Im on leave after 3 mths of non-stop working... Todae & tml!!! Having a long weekend... Wahahahahaha!!!
Im a happy girl (at the moment.. hehe) but of course when it comes to life, nothing is perfect. But Im trying hard to adapt to the "dog-eat-dog" world... Came to my senses that pple cannot be trusted from the "surface"... At least, its still not too late to realise tat. Im a straight-forward person (esp NOW) as compared to the old mae sie back in sch... I dare myself to voice out watever I feel is not right, voice out my tots & trash everything out... to my surprise, its isnt that difficult.... & pple do accept my opinions BUT OF COURSE must know how to phrase it in a way that the other party can accept & dun get offended lah!!!
But at least I make known to "her" that Im not someone that can be taken advantage of... however, it seems that she trying to do that initally & I immediately put a stop to it.. cos I noe once I let her continue to take advantage of my kind intention, she would literally "shit" on my head or even ALL OVER MI!!! This is "one lesson" that unknowingly Ive learn thru the past 3 mths... >>> KNOW HOW TO PUT A STOP TO SUCH SITUATION & MOST IMPTLY TO SUCH PPLE!!!
Im really blessed to have a very supportive team behind mi... they believe in me that I can lead the team well though Im the youngest & one of my staff always calls mi "little boss"... Im flattered honestly, they gave mi the respect even though I took over the team for only a short 3 mths period... & guess wat, yesterday Ive done their appraisals for the quarter... damn stress cos Ive nv done this b4 & my AVP sits in with mi & I have to comment on all my staffs in front of my AVP!!! (@_@) Super stress ok!!! Thank god!!! Its over!!!
Had a good shopping this evening... met phy in the afternoon & went to bugis to do some window shopping.. didnt get anything there cos we came to realise that we are no longer tat "age" to get those kind of clothings... getting clothes that can be worn to work is something MORE PRACTICAL for the both of us... Went over to orchard for dinner & bought my fav fruity perfume... Have the urge to get my little Coach purse... but didnt cos they didnt have the color I like... Btw, went for rebonding (FINALLY after 4 years!!!) & had my hair coloured AGAIN!!! haha!!! went to correct the color cos I tink the guy who color my hair did a mess out of it... so my stylist say "NO NO!!! I NEED TO DO SMTHING ABT IT!!!" Color came out pretty nice, in basic brown... classy & most imptly NOT LIAN!!! Very scared those RED & YELLOW base colors!!! EWWWW!!!! Yucks!!!
Shall stop here now... *yawns*
Perfectly Imperfect - Lil' Star
12:38 AM.
Saturday, April 14, 2007 11:50 PM
Wat I did todae is practically jus slp!!! Laze around... dun even bother to snack cos Im really really too lazy to do anything... this happens esp ever since Ive started work... I dun even bother to go out todae cos the afternoon seems too hot to get my butt out of the hse... & the tot of having to work on Monday & A BRAND NEW WEEK to start off with again... Sian ar!!!
Baby slp with mi the whole afternoon & cos there was no one at home as mommy together with my grandma went to visit my ah yi's father who is in the hospital... & I dun see the need to go... another reason for lazing at home is becos yesterdae was my mentor's bdae & she has been dancing salsa for 2 years... & she brought mi to this salsa club at Amara hotel which I stayed with her till 12 plus near 1... where practically everyone there flaunt their moves... For the 1st time, I FEEL SO HELPLESS IN DANCE!!! But its okie.... I still feel salsa is not my thang... & I dun like the tot of getting touched by other guys esp if doing the Barchatta thingy which seems to mi like some intimate dance moves with those hugging & caressing.. Ewww.... NAH!!! Im still a "independent" dancer cum performer... I DUN NEED A PARTNER TO DANCE!!! Again, Salsa is not my kind of dance!!!
& btw I dun need anyone to accompany mi to the club which I tot "someone" would really consider to but since she doesnt want to leave her pathetic bf at vivo... THEN FORGET IT!!! Honestly I dun even bother to answer her calls & smses! & PLS!!! dun come telling mi you will ask your bf to go home... I dun want to carry this kind of guilt... I would rather you dun turn up!!! So pissed!!!
Anyway, back to the topic... it was an eye-opener for mi at the salsa club.. I was lucky enough to catch a performance by this couple who are pros in the salsa scene... it was amazing!!!
But I do agree with jasmine that salsa guys are a little too sissy for mi & alittle weird as well... I dunno lah.. jus a feeling they give mi when I was at the club... esp when they do the barchatta... YUCKZ!!! @_@
Okie.. shall stop here for tonite...
Perfectly Imperfect - Lil' Star
11:50 PM.
Thursday, April 05, 2007 3:41 PM
Todae didnt go to work cos having a fever and its really bad as my fever keeps going up & down... Went to see a doctor yesterdae evening aft work... waited for like 45mins!!! Imagine when you are so sick and practically you feel like slpin on the floor already!!! But yet you still have to wait for your turn to see the doc... Doc says Im having a virus infection... when he took my temp... it was 37.2 degrees but later part of the night at home, it shot up to 38 degrees & worst still after taking my medication... tot it would be better... but apparently it didnt... this morning I took my temp again... it shot up to 38.7 degrees and & I took again around 8 plus in th morning... it shot up AGAIN!!! at 39 degrees!!! no choice I force myself up to eat something b4 taking my medication... I feel like dying... my head is so freaking heavy and everything around me seems to be floating... but as for now, considering not having such a heavy head... my temp gone down to 37 degrees, at least Im feeling so much better now... of course!!! or else I wun be blogging now...
Was actually not feeling well yesterdae after lunch... having very bad running nose... my stupid mucus keep flowing until now the side of my nose are peeling like nobody's biz... my colleagues was nice asking mi if Im okie... obviously Im not okie... but I have to do my reporting... stayed at work until 6.30 which initally I wanted to leave at 6pm on the dot... but didnt cos I had this feeling I will be on mc todae... so cleared as much as my body & head allows me to....
In fact, missed the days when Im still studying though I ONLY missed the free time and amply slp I can have... DEFINITELY NOT THE PROJECTS & EXAMS!!!
Celest came back to Spore once again... wanted to meet everyone... & it seems that this is not going to happen cos had a heated argument yesterdae with Shiyun thru sms... this so called a "happy" gathering was dragged for days!!! decidin when to actually meet where EVERYONE is available... either one cannot make it or the other one had smthing on... so I intiate to make the final decision as in whoever can make it... "you are most welcome to join" but who couldnt make it then no choice... cos celest is flying back on Mon... & I even mention I dun want to wait for who ever cant make it and by then celest may have flown back to hk... Shiyun came back with a sms which is 8 long msgs... saying that she is very disappointed with the msg Ive send, & becos of my msg in the morning, I make everyone didnt want to turn up for the gathering & she even have the cheek to mention that the past few days she has put in so much effort to get everyone togther and now her efforts are down the drain... FUCK!!!! WAT NOW!!! my fault lah!!! another thing she mention is that I dun treat everyone as my buddy.. & saying it seems that I only have the interest to meet celest and not the rest!!! fucking childish!!! waste my time!!!
I feel that the conversation between me a& shiyun shd be known by the rest.. so whenever I return my msg to shiyun I would mass sms to everyone... letting them noe what is going on... Apparently it doesnt seem to be my msg that made everyone didnt want to turn up for the gathering but its more like they REALLY HAVE smthing to attend to & cant change the appointment... Adelene msg us saying that this is suppose to be a happy gathering & she admit that the argment thingy is partly cause by her as she really cant make it to the gathering.. (SO THIS ONE NOT MY FAULT RITE!!!) Haojun msg back saying that he already ask us to go ahead without him and what is happening now??? (SO DOES THIS SEEMS LIKE I CAUSED EVERYONE NOT TO TURN UP FOR THE GATHERING???) shiyun still jolly well msg mi saying that adelene have to go "Sao Mu" & haojun had smthing on!!! Isnt she slappin her own mouth??? THEN DONT COME SAYING BECOS OF MY MSG EVERYONE DECIDED NOT TO TURN UP LAH!!!
Wat??? now the gathering which she suppose to get everyone togther failed so she is trying to point her finger at mi isst??? FUCK OFF!!!! *SLAP HER* She still can say hope this will not affect our friendship... WAT YOU TINK??? jus becos of such minor issue argue until like tat!!! I feel so freaking childish when I reply my msges...
I made a very stern reply & sms to everyone... "Cancel the gathering, & why make everyone in such a difficult position and Im definitely affected by the heated argument.. in future, dun include mi in ANY GATHERING. & this time round I will meet celest myself.. you all go decide when to meet her on your own... I dun want to argue on in this kinda matter cos I have alot of work to catch up & I have other better things to attend to than to argue over such issue." I noe this msg sent out will definitely affect the frenship but shiyun has gone too far....
Anyway, forget abt this unhappy issue cos Im meeting celest tml provided if Im well enough... Yet to have the time to upload the pics that I have went sentosa with phy & kat on saturday... was really fun though spend quite alot of $$$...
Shall stop here... feeling my fever is rising again...
Perfectly Imperfect - Lil' Star
3:41 PM.
