Friday, October 14, 2005 11:29 PM
Im waitin... stupidly waitin for a miracle to happen... once again.. "smthing" happened & Im waitin or can I say??? Willing to take a step higher to see if a miracle really happens....
I keep tellin myself tat waiting will not help at all and tell myself umpteen times to give it up... but at the back of my head.. I keep holdin on to it tightly & wanting VERY MUCH to see the miracle tat Ive always wished for...
My wishes nv came true... & tat is why Im feelin tired mentally and soon physically... Hopin to give it up entirely... How I really wish for a fairy godmother to appear in front of mi and make things happen... so tat I dun hav to go thru some roller coaster torment...
Im a total failure when it comes to such things... sad... sad.. sad....
Perfectly Imperfect - Lil' Star
11:29 PM.